she is the reason of my life.

What have I done
Wish I could run
Away from this ship going under
Just trying to help
Hurt everyone else
Now I feel the weight of the world
 Is on my shoulders

What can you do
When ur good isn't good enough
And all that u touch tumbles down
Cus my best intentions
Keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take
Oh how many times will it take
For me to get it right
To get it right
Can I start again
With my faith shaken
Cus I can't go back and undo this
I just have to stay and face my mistakes
But if I get stronger and wiser
I'll get through this
What can you do
When ur good isn't good enough
And all that u touch tumbles down
Cus my best intentions
Keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take
Oh how many times will it take
For me to get it right

So I throw up my fist
Throw a punch in the air and
Accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair
Yea I'll send out a wish
Yea I'll send up a prayer
And finally someone will see
Adictivoz.com
How much I care

What can you do
When ur good isn?t good enough
And all that u touch tumbles down
Oh my best intentions
Keep making a mess of things
Just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take
Oh how many times will it take
To get it right, to get it right.

Don't wanna be

 Me muevo entre la multitud , trantando encontrarme amí misma .
Me siento como una guitarra que jamás ha sido tocada ... & me pregunto a mi misma . ¿Quién quiero ser? ¿Intentar ser alguien nuevo? .
Pero me digo a mi misma , NADIE , absolutamente nadie quiero ser , Solo yo.

Mi vida quiere salir de las sombras de la pared , encender las luces para borrar todo . Te preguntaras como . Abre tu corazón y veras esa luz . No quiero ser nadie , absolutamente nadie , Solo yó.

I NEVER (yeah I said it) thought this day would come.. the day I am writing my OWN Bieber experience. WOW! So basically I won a radio competition to meet JUSTIN BIEBER and FOUR tickets to his concert! This meant I could bring my family (Zac 10 years, Tyson 7 years and Charli 4 years) with me! We are all massive Bieber fans and have been trying to meet Justin for a long time!  When we got to Brisbane, the lady gave us special bands and said ”Congratulations guys and have fun!!” I felt sick! Zac said he had butterflies in his stomach, Tyson said he had worms in his, and Charli said ”I want to vomit” HAHA!! I cannot explain the feeling of waiting in a room for your turn to meet the one person that truly means the world to you. The line started moving, the girls started crying, my heart started beating faster and faster and faster. Girls were walking out of the room with the biggest smiles on their faces “You are going to love him!” Then, it was our turn. We couldnt move, we all held hands and walked in. I covered my mouth as I walked around the corner. I COULDNT BELIEVE IT, or shall I say.. BELIEBE IT! JUSTIN BIEBER WAS STANDING THERE, SMILING AT US! We slowly walked up as he asked our names and shook our hands. The first thing I noticed was how precious and cute he was! He was SO adorable and his voice and his smell. HE WAS SO TAN!!!! We then got a photo and I sneakly touched his hair! He then talked a little to my family and said my niece was gorgeous. We told him we had a sash and a poem for him and I told him we had written a letter of support to Selena and it would mean the world to us if he could give it to her. He was looking at my nephew at the time and just stopped, stood up (he was kneeling) and looked at me “Really?” ”Yeah” I said. He just froze, looked really deep into my eyes, smiled and said “Thank you… so much” He smiled again “I will make sure she gets it alright”. He smiled again. It just made my heart explode. I then said my niece Charli is a massive Selena fan. He bent down and said to her “Really!” He smiled again. “Give me a high five beautiful” That is when I saw it for myself.  For those of you who don’t think the hate Selena gets doesn’t affect Justin, you are wrong. I then got a hug, a warm, beautiful, Bieber hug! We said a few more things and as we walked out, he turned to Kenny and said ”Hey man.. they’re good fans” I turned back and smiled. He then hid behind a door and scared his next girls. We walked out. WHAT THE HECK!!!  OH MY BIEBER!!!!! SOMEBODY SLAP ME!!!!! I JUST HUGGED HIM!!!! HE SPOKE TO MY FAMILY!!! We then got to watch the concert which absolutely blew my mind. The dancers, the singers, the lighting, the smoke, JUSTIN! It was just incredible! He is SO talented and to share this experience with my family, to see the admiration in their eyes, was purely unbeatable. This night was by FAR the best night of my life.

My message to those who didn’t get to meet him this time round, your day will come, I promise. Apart from the obvious reasons, my favourite part was seeing his smile when he knew there were beliebers out that that DID support any decision in his life. I really hope that the next time you go to send a death threat, or a nasty comment, you remember this. It affects Justin just as much as it does to people in his life. He is the most amazing person on this planet, agreed? So why would you upset him? You would never in your life hurt him would you? It’s about time we put a stop to this hate. I have learnt SO much from my Bieber experience. So much more then I thought I would and I hope that you will learn from it as well. He is just so sweet, and so genuine and so flawless.  Everyone keeps asking how I didn’t freak when I met him and how I acted to normal. It’s because when I walked in that room, I didn’t see a super star, I saw a young Canadian boy with a heart of gold. Thank you for reading, I hope you became apart of my experience too. Thank you so much Justin. You are so perfect. I make a promise to you right now. I promise to support you and the decisions you make for eternity. You have taught me even more. Never change.  I ask you all to take this experience into your heart, Justin has said it before, when his family and friends hurt, he hurts and this is no different. Oh and P.S Post Bieber Depression totally exists!!